Diary: Page Twenty-three
Jun. 26th, 2006 01:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shosen“The taint suits you.”
I don’t think it does. I’m not certain it ever did, though I suppose to be where I am now, I must have had an affinity for it.
But, there isn't a choice anymore. I can take Felcloth, wash it in the clear waters of the Moonwell, banish the taint to lift it pure and clean before her seething eyes, but I cannot do the same for myself.
Whether it suits me or not, any chance I ever had of going back was eliminated when I heard that voice in the Undercity, when I walked into the lab under another’s will.
I know it’s my fault, my choice. Whatever happened may have closed the door behind me, but I opened it in the first place. I’m just… still coming to terms with that, and with what has changed now that retreat is no longer an option.
I don’t think it does. I’m not certain it ever did, though I suppose to be where I am now, I must have had an affinity for it.
But, there isn't a choice anymore. I can take Felcloth, wash it in the clear waters of the Moonwell, banish the taint to lift it pure and clean before her seething eyes, but I cannot do the same for myself.
Whether it suits me or not, any chance I ever had of going back was eliminated when I heard that voice in the Undercity, when I walked into the lab under another’s will.
I know it’s my fault, my choice. Whatever happened may have closed the door behind me, but I opened it in the first place. I’m just… still coming to terms with that, and with what has changed now that retreat is no longer an option.