Diary: Page Five
Mar. 12th, 2006 12:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shosenSome time ago, I sat on a beach, listening to a discussion about the Forsaken, the Apothecaries, and the Plague. At the time, it was my reaction to the first that frightened me into recognising a need for change. (That’s a debt I doubt I’ll ever be able to repay.)
Right now, it’s the last two that fill my thoughts. I could hardly pay attention to them at the time, lost in my own turmoil, but I think I remember her saying that the Apothecaries were killing people, and that she was helping. It didn’t occur to me to be upset at that at the time; I’ve killed for every faction in the Horde, so why should that one be any different?
I also saw it as a matter of numbers: we don’t have them. I’m no strategist, but even I can see that we’ll need new soldiers at some point, and only so many within the ranks of the Scourge can be saved. The other races can make little Hordlings, we can’t. (At least I think we can’t. I should ask Dr. Vines what he thinks of that.) Deriving a new plague, to fight and to survive, seemed to make sense.
It was just illogical to assume that they’d be making a plague just for the purpose of killing everyone and everything. Shows what I know, and what I don’t notice.
Johaan’s working to create new soldiers, at least I think he is, but Lydon? Everything I helped him make resulted in death or insanity. And Keever, if I understand his ramblings, is just looking for a weapon. Much as I hate the Apothecarium, I have been spending a lot of time there lately. The more I talk to the researchers, the leaders in the Society, the more uneasy and frightened I become.
I am working for sadists and madmen.
Right now, it’s the last two that fill my thoughts. I could hardly pay attention to them at the time, lost in my own turmoil, but I think I remember her saying that the Apothecaries were killing people, and that she was helping. It didn’t occur to me to be upset at that at the time; I’ve killed for every faction in the Horde, so why should that one be any different?
I also saw it as a matter of numbers: we don’t have them. I’m no strategist, but even I can see that we’ll need new soldiers at some point, and only so many within the ranks of the Scourge can be saved. The other races can make little Hordlings, we can’t. (At least I think we can’t. I should ask Dr. Vines what he thinks of that.) Deriving a new plague, to fight and to survive, seemed to make sense.
It was just illogical to assume that they’d be making a plague just for the purpose of killing everyone and everything. Shows what I know, and what I don’t notice.
Johaan’s working to create new soldiers, at least I think he is, but Lydon? Everything I helped him make resulted in death or insanity. And Keever, if I understand his ramblings, is just looking for a weapon. Much as I hate the Apothecarium, I have been spending a lot of time there lately. The more I talk to the researchers, the leaders in the Society, the more uneasy and frightened I become.
I am working for sadists and madmen.